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I was diagnosed with Celiac Disease

August 8, 2018

I have celiac disease and didn’t even know it.

Most of you probably aren’t fully aware of extent of my gut issues over the last 5 years because I don’t really share that part of my life. It’s definitely not the most glamorous thing to talk about! But it’s real and it’s my current reality. So I wanna be real with myself and all of you too. Continue Reading…

Life, Travel

I didn’t actually want to go to hawaii…🙄

May 4, 2018

And I know what you’re probably thinking.
I’m a turd.
Who DOESN’T want to go to Hawaii?! I mean, come on!

But truthfully, I really didn’t…

So here’s what happened.

Some of you might know that I’ve suffered from Anxiety for a few years, and more recently, I’ve had a bad bout of it sneak back into my daily life. I was doing everything in my power to ward it off. Yoga, meditation, visiting the beach, napping, baths… I was doing all the self care things that I could think of to try and keep the Anxiety at bay.

But I couldn’t fight it.

This time is was powerful, like a MEGA wave tsunami, coming to swallow me up whole. That’s what it felt like every day, and I couldn’t bare it anymore. So I decided what I thought would be best for my mental health and to try meds for the first time ever. Now, I’m pretty anti meds —  Not for everyone of course – because I think they help a lot of people for a lot of things! But for myself personally; I just don’t like the thought of shoving pills of pills into my body with ingredient words that I can’t even pronounce. It’s scary! Meds and pills and changing brain chemistry – all of the above are all super scary things!!!

But I was literally at my wits end.

I couldn’t function properly anymore.
The anxiety was so present in my life that even going out to eat casually at a restaurant with my sister and good friend caused anxiety symptoms to rise. At that point, I knew it was really time for me to try something new.

 

 

So I drove myself to the doctor and was prescribed pills. I literally cried. I was so sad. I didn’t want to be on meds so bad, that I just broke out into tears right in her office. I just wanted to be me again and I felt like nobody could understand my angst in that moment, and all I wanted to find out is the ROOT CAUSE of my problems. So that, in addition to the giant fears I has swirling around in my head of being on pills, was almost crippling.

Can you believe that?

The thought of BEING on anxiety meds GAVE me added anxiety.

That is not normal my friends!

So there I went. Filled the prescription feeling all scared and bad about my decisions and anxious about symptoms and scared that the pills would take away the person I am. But here’s the thing: A few months ago, I was NOT myself.  That’s the whole point of what I’m trying to make here: Is that, I was not myself and maybe these pills were going to help me be me again.

 

Ok now we can get to the good part: Hawaii

It’s 2018 which means it’s my sister Katie’s 30th birthday (Hurray Katie!!! 🎉). We had been planning a trip to celebrate for nearly a year. By the time Hawaii came around, I was so exhausted and defeated and deflated and trying to recover from anxiety, that the thought of getting on a plane and switching time zones made me woozy. But I did it, because I love my sister and I could never leave her hanging.

At this point, I was about 4 weeks into the meds. They were certainly helping, but I still had looming fears and anxieties and ruminating thoughts daily. And off we went, up up and away into the Hawaiian skies. I didn’t look  back.

 

 

Hawaii healed me.

Basically, it was the best decision of my life.

Because something clicked while I was there. Perhaps it was the meds, or the warm weather, or the sea air, or spending time with someone that I could be completely unapologetically myself with. About the 3rd day in, I saw sunlight again. I felt so light and airy and I finally just felt like the old Jessica! It was a wave of relief, if only you could’ve been there!!

 GOOD NEWS!

Although you couldn’t be there on the trip, I ended up filming the entire thing so you can journey with us and see our adventures. There were goats and hikes and volcanoes and turtles good food and a whoooole lot of good vibes. The people of Hawaii are incredible and filled with so much life. I felt very welcomed on the Big Island – rather than feeling like the usual, a poorly treated tourist looking in from the outside. I felt included in something bigger, and it really changed my perspective and experience on the trip. Not to mention, it helped relieve so much anxiety.

I put together a 10 minute vlog that you can watch below. I HIGHLY recommend watching, cause I know it’ll make you smile.

 

Now I’ve been home for 2 weeks, and things are still bright and airy and good. I feel like me and I really missed it! I am currently gearing up with Pearl for my big House Concert Tour 2018! and very excited to start this next chapter.

 

So I wanna know:

Have you been to Hawaii? If so, where? Which Island? Tell me everything. I want deets!!
I looooooved Hawaii so much. There was plenty of healing goin’ on as soon as I got there, and I didn’t even know it was coming. I’d love to hear your experience!! Leave a comment below and tell me allll about it.

 

 

Much love,
and thanks for stickin’ around through these bumpy times.

xoxo

Music

Have a song request?

April 23, 2018

A fan asked if he could make a private donation to me, so that I could cover one of his favourite songs ‘Wasn’t Expecting That’ by Jamie Lawson. Luckily it’s also one of my favourites, so I was thrilled when we wanted to support me financially to create it for him!

I happily accepted the challenge and went on to make a cover video – the first one in a very very long time. I want to thank Daniel Mull for the encouragement and donation, and all of my beautiful patrons for the financial support to make this video possible.

Do you have a song request?

If I could fulfill every single song request that I receive weekly, I would! But being an independent artist, I wear so many hats that some days I even forget to eat lunch! That’s why, when an amazing fan asked if he could financially support me in exchange to cover his favourite song, I was sooo grateful and had an “AHA” moment!
💡
Suddenly, the thought of making time for a cover song wasn’t so stressful, when I knew that I would be making someone very happy, AND it would be worth my time and effort on the financial side of things. This is why I have decided to open a dialogue here on the blog, in case there is anyone else who has always been dying to hear their favourite song in a different voice.

If you have always wanted to hear your favourite song being covered, now is the time to do it! I’ll be gratefully accepting donations to fulfill these requests, so if this sounds like something you’d be interested in, please get in touch and let’s see if we can make it happen!

 

 

Thank you, as always, for sticking around and being so awesome-sauce.

You make my life so good.

 

Sending big hugs!

xoxo

 

Life

I decided to try anxiety meds

March 21, 2018
Avan Patel Photography avanpatel.com

Two weeks ago, I shared my ongoing struggles of anxiety with the world. As I read through the supportive comments and messages from people I’ve known for years and people who I’ve never met at all, I just felt so held. I guess social media can be good for some things!  Continue Reading…

Featured, Life, Travel

I haven’t been completely honest with you.

March 1, 2018
Anxiety from too much travel?

This was me last week.

Amongst all the happy smiling faces and photos of my epic travels, this photo resembles how I actually felt most of the time… and most of the month for that matter. I suffer from anxiety. And although as I write this post and I’m feeling pretty darn good, I know it’s not permanent and that my anxiety could resurface at any moment. Continue Reading…

Music, Video Production

WATER: behind the lyrics

November 12, 2017

Who here loves water?
I hope EVERYONE in this room said “I” because our bodies are almost entirely made up of that stuff. It’s MEGA important!
Just as much as our deep breathing, heart pumping organs, water is a necessity for everything we do.

Continue Reading…